i dont post that much any more
its sad..
im getting tired of xanga
i wanna switch over to live journal cuz it just seems more cozier... this one just seems like it has a lot of open space

well... i must get started on the research project due tomorrow

wish me luck

i havent updated in a while
wow

wednesday, thursday and friday were un eventful

saturday was kristens b day
and i had an 8 hour LIYO rehearsal
in which i got a violin hickey...
one gets a violin hickey from playing for extensive amounts of time

and then sunday i had a dance rehearsal for ever
and matt and i went out to dinner later in the evening

k now for me to bitch

there are some people, and i think u know who u are, who just need to get over themselves. they are attention seekers. if ure acting like somethings bothering u,and ure putting ure head down on ure desk and pretending to cry and someone askswhats wrong then dont say, oh nothing. its pathetic. if its nothings wrong then stop acting like there is. are u really that desperate for attention? u do stupid things and pretend to be clutzy and ditzy just for attention. yes i admit that I am clutzy and ditzy but i dont mean it. falling off your chair just to get a few laughs is something we did in 3rd grade.

basically all im trying to say is get over ureself
and there are obviously people who are gunna defend this person and guess what i dont care. its them im talking about not u.. so put a sock in it.

i had this whole thing on protagonist... that we learned today in english.. and then my computer decided to eat it. tear

well here it is:

Protagonist/ Antagonist:
"The word protagonist comes from 2 greek word, protos and agoniste, and means "first actor." Today it refers to the amin or chied character in a work of fiction...."

so basically that "Lost_Protagonist" dude is basically a lost actor... or a main character...
*loser*

today was a horrible day.. completely and utterly horrible

felt sick all day..
bio test blew major assage
spanish was ok cept for the cierto/falso part
global test was ok... kinda new the material, kinda didnt
then off 7th where i organized my binder (im such a dork)
and 8th orchestra from hell

i saw matt today which wasnt so bad...
but i felt bad because i was completely out of it cuz im sick and i just felt like a complete loser cuz i kept drifting off into my own little world
and then i went home and napped
that, besides seeing matt, was the highlight of my day

and my father is an asshole.. beyond belief... to the point where its sickening... hes into my business and then tells me that matts too good for me and im not worth his time.

maybe im not


who knows?

i hope i am
matts an awesome guy and im crazy about him..

and  then in all my rage i decided to slam a door, cept it kinda slammed on my finger... and there was this mom at dance whos a nurse ans she says its most definitely sprained, maybe even broken... ooo so that would explain the swollen purpleness

ok well as natalia would say,
toodles

and m.r.h is still hot

who the fuck is lost protagonist? its obviously u who doesnt have friends... cuz if u did u wouldnt be sitting around randomly commenting on peoples xangas with obnoxious things like that...
and ure like those grandemacciato and snappleapple freaks! GET A FUCKING LIFE!

k now that i got that outta the way
hi!
this weekend was CRAZAY!!!
friday night i went to see les mis at commack.. lemme tell u... it was out of this world... they have such talented people there... and their pit band was crazy amazing...
saturday.. woke up early to go shopping with matt for clothes for sherries sweet sixteen.. then we went out to lunch... he dropped me home.. and then picked me up... the sweet 16 was awesome... at the sahara night club... kinda cold there.. and it was raining out... but matt looked hot
then sunday, had liyo in the morning... but went late.. cuz i need my sleep
and then went shopping with mommy..
and to visit matt at Krispy Kreme pam was there too...

and then today... a not so crazy day... was kinda boring.. bio usual goughian stuff.. then theory we did absolutely nothing, spanish... was test ful... (oy i completely bombed it) and then global.. i dunno i fell asleep.. and english we watched romeo and juliet

me: Ms. Benson!
ms. b: yes rachel?
me: Romeo forgot to kill paris!
ms. b: yea and lady montague forgot to die 2!

guess u had to be there... then i had lessons during math.. and orchestra... and then of course i saw matt.. and made him think i was gunna kill him... cuz apparently i was "shady" ha abby thought so 2.. but it was really because i had to figure out a way to put something that i wanted to give him in his car... and then i kept thinking of all these crazy ways.. and then laughing out loud and he got kinda creeped out... oops

and then he came over after... and found out that im slowly destroying my computer

next weekend is gunna be crazy.. friday i have a liyo rehearsal from 4-7 and then our schools show from 8- whenever...  and then i want my sped to come over so i can give her presents for her birthday.. saturday i have kristens b-day... but im not gunna see her... then from 2:30 i have liyo until 10 at night... and then matt might take me out somewhere... if he gets hjome from visiting colleges early enough.. and then sunday i have liyo from 10-12:00 and then straight from there i have to go to dance from 12-1:30... im gunna die of exaustion...

im so glad abbys happy again... we missed seeing her smile
seans map today in music theory.. was both sad and true at the same time... i never realized how fucking intertwined all our lives were... haha sean even put me n my "boy toy" on... haha
and of course john is gay... with scott and sr. B3115
and then theres the hot seniors and juniors... ah life is good..

ok well thats a long entry... much <3

<3 rachel

p.s. m.r.h. is hot

well today was interesting... yesterday was interesting-er...
so i get home from school yesterday and matt came over
and thenonce he left i started talking to nick about me n matt... and nick made me paranoid... it doesnt take much and so i got all emo and i was like totally upset because nicks a guy and he knows how guys think... and so... yea but then i talked to matt.... and apparently hes "sorting things out" which is cool... ill give him space... and time...

and then today i took possibly the most rediculously hard spanish test ever. i was ready to kill banks... i came into global late and guess what, varga didnt care... surprise surprise... 
and then  i had 6th and 7th off...  cuz bensons getting married to some jewish guy from illinois (there are jews in illinois?)
and varvaros getting boob implants... as if her boobs could get n e perkier... this should be funny...
her and ms gough... what the fuck.. they're like 60 and they're still getting boob jobs... i dont get it...
and then i didnt play in orchestra and instead i helped a friend ( i hope) you know who u are and u know im always there for u... always and forever.

mkay well that was today
tomorrow i have a sweet sixteen to go to... and first in the morning i have to get matt to dress all perdy... and we're going out to lunch afterwards... so thats my day... tomorrow is mattday

mkat well thats all folks
®@©#€£

for matt:
Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more